It has been awhile since I last sat down and put thought to computer.....and that frustrates me. If this is a new me and a new journey why do I keep doing the same things looking for a new result? (remember this statement!!) New math is like old math in some respects. 1+1=2; 100-50=50....so on and so forth. Just because the kids today don't use an abacus to figure out their homework does not mean a calculator is better.
Now I can see you (as this was me the last few days) scratching my head wondering why 'all the effort' I am putting forth is not garnering the results I so desperately wish for. How desperate am I? Enough to be honest and really take a long hard look at my process?! I work for an engineering test lab. Testing follows specs....specs have tests and rules to follow...ergo a process. So what has my process been of late?
Well, I do go to my workout (my favorite jazzercise class) on T/TH/FR/SU. If I am really ambitious I might do 2 classes on Tuesday. That is not the norm (for the record). I wear this directlife tool that tells me how much of my daily target I have achieved and I wear a pedometer to track my steps. I journal every BLT, record my steps and earn extra points (life according to weight watchers points plus program) that I can choose to consume or not. Going back to simple math...calories out - calories in = weight loss.
I would swear to you every day this is what I am doing but I have noticed of late that I am checking the pedometer to see if I have gotten to my goal of steps. Do I only need 30 more? Easy peasy......run up and down the stairs. Do I need 2500? Hmmm........walk the dog around the complex just might be enough. Did I make the target? Am I short by just a few? Oh well, that is not a big deal today......I will do better tomorrow. Then tomorrow comes.......more of the same (review above listed statement I asked you to remember).
I have not been as religious about weighing and measuring my food intake. I have not been meeting my personal goal for steps. I have not been to the gym in months. I am so done with the negative.
Today, I choose to fill myself up with positive. I will stay positive and not let negativity creep in to hurt me. Do I have you wondering if these are just words? Well, here is my process.
Step 1. Accept me and all my flaws.
Step 2. Get good food to fuel my body. We reap what we sow......sow junk get junk~
Step 3. Exercise because I want to. I really do, sometimes it is just hard to get started. My incentive will be a sweet (or savory) treat when I am done. It can be as simple as a glass of ice cold chocolate almond milk or as decadent as a small individual bite sized piece of chocolate.
Step 4. Continue to attend ww meetings. The information and support are staggering. So why not use the tools offered to me?
Step 5. Give myself a hug. Remind me that I am worth it. Remind me that I am good enough, smart enough and gosh darn it people like me!!
Step 6. Repeat this each day
I need to remember that the demons are in my mind. They do not surround me. I do not have any one person saying to me 'don't exercise......it is not good for you'. Stop thinking I am not worthy. If I treat others with such grace and compassion, why not do it for me? Charity begins at home and I am number 1. Welcome to my world!
Now I can see you (as this was me the last few days) scratching my head wondering why 'all the effort' I am putting forth is not garnering the results I so desperately wish for. How desperate am I? Enough to be honest and really take a long hard look at my process?! I work for an engineering test lab. Testing follows specs....specs have tests and rules to follow...ergo a process. So what has my process been of late?
Well, I do go to my workout (my favorite jazzercise class) on T/TH/FR/SU. If I am really ambitious I might do 2 classes on Tuesday. That is not the norm (for the record). I wear this directlife tool that tells me how much of my daily target I have achieved and I wear a pedometer to track my steps. I journal every BLT, record my steps and earn extra points (life according to weight watchers points plus program) that I can choose to consume or not. Going back to simple math...calories out - calories in = weight loss.
I would swear to you every day this is what I am doing but I have noticed of late that I am checking the pedometer to see if I have gotten to my goal of steps. Do I only need 30 more? Easy peasy......run up and down the stairs. Do I need 2500? Hmmm........walk the dog around the complex just might be enough. Did I make the target? Am I short by just a few? Oh well, that is not a big deal today......I will do better tomorrow. Then tomorrow comes.......more of the same (review above listed statement I asked you to remember).
I have not been as religious about weighing and measuring my food intake. I have not been meeting my personal goal for steps. I have not been to the gym in months. I am so done with the negative.
Today, I choose to fill myself up with positive. I will stay positive and not let negativity creep in to hurt me. Do I have you wondering if these are just words? Well, here is my process.
Step 1. Accept me and all my flaws.
Step 2. Get good food to fuel my body. We reap what we sow......sow junk get junk~
Step 3. Exercise because I want to. I really do, sometimes it is just hard to get started. My incentive will be a sweet (or savory) treat when I am done. It can be as simple as a glass of ice cold chocolate almond milk or as decadent as a small individual bite sized piece of chocolate.
Step 4. Continue to attend ww meetings. The information and support are staggering. So why not use the tools offered to me?
Step 5. Give myself a hug. Remind me that I am worth it. Remind me that I am good enough, smart enough and gosh darn it people like me!!
Step 6. Repeat this each day
I need to remember that the demons are in my mind. They do not surround me. I do not have any one person saying to me 'don't exercise......it is not good for you'. Stop thinking I am not worthy. If I treat others with such grace and compassion, why not do it for me? Charity begins at home and I am number 1. Welcome to my world!
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