Bye Bye Negative Nellie

I never really thought about how negativity can be dead weight and drag so hard on a person.  In the last months I have been dealing with food sensitivities and other dietary challenges.  The only word I kept seeing was CAN'T and DON'T.  Don't eat this and I can't eat that.

I don't live like this.  I have always been the glass half full girl......not this !


I have taken stock of who I am at this moment and where I want to go.  There are so many things to be thankful and grateful for.  I have a wonderful life, family, job that I love.  I have friends and laughter.  I need to brighten the light a bit.


Simple things are in my future......I actually want to take measurements of myself so I know where I am.  I also know this body is mine to love.  If I am not liking what I see I can complain or do something about it. These bodies of ours are a shell that holds our heart, soul, and love.  We can choose to be kind and gentle, take care of it......or we can ignore it and let it fall apart.  I choose the former.  I CAN dress my best, I CAN go for a walk to move it.  I CAN choose to nurture it with love and spirituality. I CAN look my best (at any given moment), I CAN smile and bring the light back to me......remember what we give we get back 10 fold.  I ought to remember that when I want to get mad at people!  YIKES!


My gratitude journal is going to be more important to me too.  I think writing will help me express myself better and give me an outlet to get stuff out.  If it does not get out it can eat me alive......and that is not the goal.  I am craving peace and happiness.


I have spoken in detail with my nutritionist and what I was feeling and how I was floundering.  I did have some cleansing tears.  I needed it......truly.  I have been feeling like a bundle of nerves not knowing which end was up.  I was allowing my perfectionist personality take over.....and from there confusion set in.  What rules do I follow?  What direction is right?


In the end, all the answers are inside of me.  Deep breaths and listening, calming.  Surrounding myself with my own love and peace.  Spending time in the Adoration chapel at church will help me center myself some days.  I need to remember I am enough.


ONE last thing....I have chosen a couple of works for the year.  My first word is FREEDOM.  Freedom from the chains that bind me to past pain, the chains that I perceive.  Freedom from sabotaging myself.  Freedom from the words CAN'T and DON'T.  My other word is LOVE.  I want to fall in love with myself again.  I am a pretty terrific person and until I get that to shine through I can't ask anyone else to love me...because I will not be looking for it.


This is the start.....there might be opportunities to chat with professionals to get a clearer picture of what I desire.  It all begins with me.......oooh, and maybe a vision board to show where I want to to be in the various aspects of my life.  Something to look forward to....along with intentions to guide me along the way.

Happy new year.......much love and happiness to everyone.  2017 will be one rocking year!