Fearless Living and Revelation

I have been slowly living fearlessly.  I see some of you shaking your head!  Yes you can live fearlessly and be slow about it!


Let me explain.  In the past, I would blow off an invitation, forget about a concert I got a ticket to, skip a cooking class all in the name of staying in my comfort zone.  I get feeling like 'I can do this alone' and when push came to shove I caved and hid in my cave.


One of my first adventures was to visit my dear god child's new adopted baby.  This cherub is too precious.  She let Auntie Elaine hold her, feed her.  I played with her fingers and toes; she cooed and drooled.......all the things a 3.5 month old baby is supposed to do.  Mommy took care of the burping and diaper changing!  Love the mama!!  If I had listened to that ugly voice in my head (to be named DEVIL WOMAN) I would have sat on the couch, watched TV (ok, listened to TV) while I knit away on my project.  I love that I got up and went without any second thoughts!  Babies are wonderful~


I am updating my bucket list, there are things on there that I have no desire for any more (dancing on a bar?!....really?  That is so Coyote Ugly ago!).....and adding things like lessons on how to really use my camera to take those fabulous pictures people post on FB all the time!


Now to that ugly monster......I have to address the elephant in the room so I can sweep it under the rug.  Someone I know is getting married.  I am happy for her.  She has not lived by the golden rules as I have so I want to know why her dreams are coming true and mine are not.......do you want to know why?  It came to me a minute ago.......she lives FEARLESSLY and continues to focus on what she wants.  I have not always been strong like that.


Now her not following the golden rules, did that really make a difference?  Probably not.  I mean, in my head it matters but does it really?  She is living her life the best way she knows how.....and I think, rather I believe, I have chosen to sit back and watch WAITING for life to hand me what I want because I have been a good girl.  Goody two shoes.  America's darling.......we see what I have gotten for that?!!


Well, no more.  I am living and DOING what I feel is right for me regardless of what anyone else might think.  I am FEARLESS AND I am ENOUGH.


See you soon..